She's back

So..... it has been a while since my last post. Apparently life really does get in the way of things. It is time for a change though. I am going to be more dedicated a teach myself to commit to something new.

So a lot has changed for me in the last few months. I am now a working girl... no not in that way. But in a new, fantastic way. I have a job! A real working, could see myself doing this for a long time, job! I am also single...very strange feeling.

Okay, so i say it's a job.... well its a placement. As you can read from my post below, my complaints about not being able to find a placement in January of this year were rather evident. It made me realize however, how lucky i was not to get certain ones i did and right at the last minute everything just fell into place. This is so strange because as a person i am so organised and everything has to be just 'so', that doing anything last minute just can't be comprehended. Anyway, it happened, i am now and have been for the last 3 (almost 4 months) been working for a delightful little food company in North Dorset. It's funny because i say its small, but in terms of reach it really isn't!

For me, i think i was so narrow minded at the time, i had to apply for all of the large companies. To me, i thought that if i was to work for them then i would be seen as more successful. How wrong i was! One of my friends got a placement at a successful, large and very well known business and HATES it. Turns out that working for a smaller company (in terms of people not reach) is so much better. I have honestly been given so many more opportunities than i ever thought i would. I love what i do, even though i am only just really starting to do it, i get my opinion noted. Of course my opinion isn't always taken on board but the point is, i can get it across. I have the ability to open peoples eyes to what i know is there. Its just about being given the opportunity to propose it and then your skills of making them understand. Of course no job is perfect, i would be slightly worried if it was. But the people who are there for me, the ones who make it special, they are the ones worth listening to. The rest... you just have to take with a pinch of salt.

I will be sure to keep updates of what is going on (within reason of course) and make sure that anything i can pass on.. i will.

C

Strings and straines

As a person I know that I am quite serious. I don't know where it has come from but it has made me feel almost trapped sometimes. I feel as if I have lost my 'let loose' button. I don't know what relaxes me anymore. It's a moral dilemma because i want to make the most of my life and feel in a sense free. University and work stresses are making me feel down and I know that I am not enjoying alot of some of the parts mentioned but as I am in my second year I don't feel as if there is alot I can do. I can't drop out of university because I have gone too far to fail.


I have recently been having interviews for placements as it is a part of my degree to complete one. I think this is the time for me to be able to become a better me. It's hard as a student though because there are only x amount of jobs and about 100000 more students wanting them! So far I have had my heart set on two in particular. The worse part is though some companies are so intent on finding out whats good for them. But what about the students?


We are only in positions where we have to take what we are offered. What if it isnt the best fit for us though? Or what if people who get the role only applied as a last resort get it leaving the eager beavers who would kill for it to suffer in a job they dont enjoy?


I don't know whether now that I am down to two choices and waiting on getting them whether to decline the one I don't really want and hedge all my bets on the one that I do?


We are in an economy that allows companies to have the widest selection of candidates, the successful ones who could talk their way out of a prison cell...then the rest of us. Will we be left scraping the bottom of the barrel for jobs that wont challenge or thrill?


I hope to god we don't.

An outfit isn't complete with out....

It's christmas season and the LBD's are in full flow. Rather than blending into the crowd, jazz up the dress with a statement necklace, instantly making any dress look more chic and expensive. Here are a few I found and love.

 Wear to give a retro feel to your look with a modern twist. Would look great with a high neck LBD

 Wear with a low cut LBD or a ribbed dress to give a chic ethnic feel

 If you're slightly less confident with statement pieces this is the perfect one. It'll give you a classic look while still bringing out an edgy feel

Although black on black can sometimes not work this will look great with a vintage feeling piece and will subtly pull the outfit together 

These are all available from www.forever21.com
1. Art Deco Medallion necklace (£12.15)
2. Fringed chain necklace (£12.15)
3. Rhinestone fringe necklace (£5.45)
4. Teardrop flower necklace (£14.90)



When life gets hectic

when life gets hectic I think I forget to breath.

Anyway back on point,
Its winter and im feeling pale....
Fake tan, I have never used it and not sure if i ever will... More a fear of turning orange and streeky than anything else!

It did however get me to thinking how recent this whole thing is and why are people doing it?
Yes i understand that people feel skinnier and better when they have a tan but i think its slightly ironic that in eastern places in the world, China etc.....

Shops sell fake white!

A huge case of irony yes understandable however. In the UK putting on fake tan portrays the image of being rich as you can theoretically afford to go away to somewhere hot and sun yourself. In china however the 'fake white' (Untan if it were) is a huge trend because the poorer workers are in the fields all day and the rich work in sun-awayed offices free from turning tan!

The conclusion I have therefore come to is that I might aswell move to China because I have an irrational fear of fake tan!

Lets get philosophical

Why do we crave to be skinny?

It was not too long ago when curves were the ‘ideal’ for women. The recent shift from curves to super skinny has caused detrimental effects to girls as young as 8. Recently I have heard and read a lot of people standing against the notion of this stating that they desire to be curvy. Lets be honest… Don’t lie. If we could all be as skinny as half of the catwalk coat hanger models walking down the runways in the ever so popular fashion weeks- we would… wouldn’t we? Call me a bias source but I would kill to have my hip bones protruding and a concave chest. But why?

Ok so here’s the theory that I have been subject to recently. For this super skinny phenomenon we can blame the ever so brightly minded marketers of the fashion industry. Through the super skinny models we are constantly exposed to creates a gap in our mind of which the fashion industry seeks to take advantage of. Stated as our ‘ideal self’ gap is pressed upon when we see the most gorgeous clothes on stick thin models making them look so much better. Marketers take advantage of this by promoting the fact that we look like them when we wear the clothes. But we don’t; hence why they are ever so successful at selling us these trends and FADS.

We aspire to be skinny but realistically it goes against the biological anthropology of our being. Skinny hips and tiny tits are not what men seek, so why do we keep on aspiring to this? Well, honestly, it is what the industry of that so many of us follow and bow to. Even though there are so many sources fighting the change of industry, wanting curves. I can say in my opinion it is not going to work. It is fact that the clothes that the designers are creating twice a year look better on skinny women.

How long until the curve revolution reforms? Despite the fighting of many anorexia and bulimia charities this revolution will take atleast 20 years to reform. But us, the generation that have fallen victim to this skinny scandal… Will this stay embedded in our minds or will we be able to follow the change?

Lets get started

New although it may be I am secure in the fact that this will not become the day to day runnings of my life through photos. Although perhaps more of a stream of consciousness; I will try and reinforce an element of structure with in my works however of which cannot be guaranteed!
I am a lover of fashion however it is safe to say that I may not dress as well as Alexa Chung or Rosie H-W. It is not what we make of fashion but more of what we love and hate about it that attracts me to creating this new, however perhaps not successful blog.
Fashion is arguably an art form of which attracts whether consciously or subliminally the vast majority of the population. As a person I am not just attracted to the exterior of fashion; the outcomes of designers and trends of which follow. But the inner workings of fashion too. Common questions occur in my mind such as: Why does society bow to such elements? How do the stages of fashion affect one’s health and mind set?
Although I am a common thinker of such questions it is still safe to say that I am not a minority of the population that does not bow to the exterior workings of the fashion industry. As a person my weight, my make-up and my clothing is always preying on my conscious. For these reasons yet not these reasons alone I am a huge follower of fashion. It is all of these reasons in unison which I wish to share with others.

Out with the old, in with the new